Moved In.

It’s finally happened! Strawberry and I are officially all moved in to our new room!!! I just set up the internet and stuff today so I FINALLY have that (no more going to my mom’s house to update the blog and stuff!!!!!!) and you know what that means!? NETFLIXXXXXXXX (I can FFFIIINNAALLLYYYY catch up on all the new Doctor Who episodes too!!!) On a plus, Mason absolutely loves his new job and he’s going to be getting paid more than me so we will be able to do more things together!! YAY FOR NOT LIVING ON THE GRIND ANYMORE!!!

All-in-all, I’m happy that everything is turning around and after a stressful yet fulfilling few months, we can finally rest easy knowing something is going right and we’re safe.

Side note: Mason and I watched Knocked Up last night and now he wants a baby??? (not right now but its nice to know that it’s an option for the future) and with all of our friends getting pregnant and having babies…. The baby fever is setting in for both of us O_O!!

Time to live vicariously through them for a while :D!

 

August Engagement???

I still keep in touch with two of the most amazing people I’ve ever met that live in Missouri- my “uncle” Steve and my “aunt” Karen. I love these two so much and they mean everything to me and then some for all that they did for me when I needed help the most and wasn’t getting it from my father. Well, in August, Strawberry and I will be visiting them for their anniversary! They’re already completely in love with him so I know that they will get along great. Karen was saying how she wants Strawberry and I to get married while we are out there so that Steve can give me away and that they can be a part of my wedding and I had to break it to them that Strawberry and I are in no hurry at all to get married and weren’t really planning on it for a very long time and that’s when Strawberry took the phone from me and said that, “not to spoil any surprises, but you guys might see an engagement when we come see you.”

 

Does that mean what I think it means?

 

c: all the smiles

A little unsettling being a little too careful

I’ve recently been involved with this really great guy that I have so much in common with and I often find myself thinking about him… and when I say often, I mean OFTEN. He makes me feel like I’m funny and I feel kinda comfortable and safe with him which scares me a little. The last time I felt this at ease was when I was with my ex fiance and that was only after a loooong time of being together, not this fast. I’m not rushing into anything, I don’t want to be disappointed should I expect more and don’t receive it but is it wrong to say that I’m falling? I want to know him so much better but I have this overwhelming need to talk to him and to hear his laugh and I want to make him feel like he makes me feel- like I’m home. It’s a little unsettling being a little too careful with him because it’s all I can do not to want to kiss him all over his strawberry goober gingerberry face. I want to stay guarded and I want to be distant, just until I know everything is okay but I feel so eased and mellow… I dunno… maybe this needs to happen, maybe he’s just the guy that I need to click into my crazy and messed up life and family, lord knows he might fit in.

Just a thought.

Not so Single?

So… Mason asked me out? I’m excited for it and hopefully it can survive the long distance until I can get home. I’ll take it as a good sign c:

 

I just wanna go home.

   Things aren’t going as well as I had wanted them to since I moved here. I’ve learned a lot of things here and they’re more than enough to learn a lesson from; I wasn’t ready to leave everything behind yet. Between the whole mess with Jon and work/money situations and this overbearing complication with making friends, I really miss home. Stuff between Ryan, Tery and I aren’t coming over smoothly either. There’s a lot of fighting and a lot of behind-your-back bitching (there’s nicer ways to say it but I’m far too frustrated with the situation to care). I don’t think I would mind everything as much if I wasn’t absolutely by myself; I’m kinda done being “united and untied” to stuff and I’m ready for actual stability. Depression is setting in faster than I can find ways to fix it and all I really want to do is sleep and be to myself which doesn’t help any.

On a little brighter note, I recently got into contact with this boy that I’ve known since elementary school and had this major crush on before he moved away when we were in middle school. Since then, we have been in constant contact and its weird but I definitely still see this great and sweet guy who I happen to have a lot in common with c: When I talk to him I feel a little better about all this mess…

Hopefully I’ll return home soon.

Messy hair, don’t care.

That hard word called “Single”

So, surprise! Things with Jon didn’t work out (this happened a while ago) and it turned into a messy situation really fast and though he and I are still really good friends, the break-up was really hard to get through. For right now, I’m coasting through things and just taking it as they come. I’ve started working so I can pay my bills and do things for myself now and I’m doing pretty okay! As for my love-life… let what comes as it may. I’m not going to search the ends of the Earth just for my “knight in shining armor”; if anything happens then it happens.

Adopting Your Own Kid.

So… if you’ve kept up with my posts, you know that I’ve recently moved to Missouri to be with my dad and my step-mom (and Jon) but the flip side of the whole thing is that I didn’t know of my father until I was 10 years old, didn’t contact him until March of 2013 and didn’t meet with him face-t0-face until November 2013 so its been a pretty wild year… but this post isn’t so much about my dad but about my step-mother, Tery.

Tery is easily one of the sweetest people I’ve ever met and her and I have so much in common. We like the same music, food, movies, same outlooks on things.. there’s just a lot (: Recently Tery apologized to me because she didn’t know if I would take offense to the fact that she’s introduced me as her daughter to everyone which I DO NOT!!! Tery and Ryan are definitely becoming a big part of my everything right now and I was just beyond happy to know that she’s accepted me so fast into a position that is so important and it’s nice to know that I’m in the family tree (and they’re introducing Jon as their son-in-law so he’s there too.)

I really think I’m gonna enjoy myself, just need to get over the culture shock of going from a city/suburb life to a middle-of-nowhere life.

He’s Becoming a Whovian…

To start off, I absolutely adore Doctor Who. I think it’s an amazing show and I avidly follow the fandoms and everything (not even ashamed of the fact that I have show merch.)

I wasn’t prepared for my boyfriend to start liking it either and he’s starting off exactly as I did. First it starts out as an “I think it’s okay” kind of attitude to, “I like it” to, “I really enjoy this show” to “let me have AAALLLLLL OF THE SHOW MERCH! I WANT TO MARRY (insert doctor/companion/cast member etc.)” but knowing Jon, I doubt it will get to the final stage… or at least the marrying part.

So far, Doctor Who is all we have watched since we got home and he enjoys watching it with me (: I’m honestly excited to show him my Adipose and my Sonic Screwdriver and my Lego Doctors and everything.

And So It Begins..

Today is the day I leave for Missouri! it a 6 hour drive from my school but its worth it ❤ However, I’m not all that excited about driving all night…. no fun v_v…..

Sometimes, papers just can’t get done.

I’ve openly accepted that sometimes essays that are due tomorrow, and need last minute touch ups, just wont get done. Sometimes they just sit there, open on your dash and look at you as you procrastinate on Facebook and Skype while your friends blast music that sounds like its from the movie Shrek behind you.

And you wont leave because you don’t want to sleep and you know that maybe, just maybe, you’ll be more productive outside of your room than in it.

But it’s all good…

~Just a thought